SADNESS TAUGHT ME WHAT HAPPINESS NEVER COULD

'' nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you ''

A S D F G H J K L

Time go more faster than we thought. Rasanya macam baru semalam je kami habis menjawab soalan peperiksaan pertengahan tahun bagi tahun ini. Rasanya macam baru semalam je kami semua bersorak keriangan setelah peperiksaan pertengahan tahun tamat. Rasanya macam baru semalam je balik dari sekolah dengan senang hati sebab peperiksaan pertengahan tahun dah selesai. Semuanya rasa macam semalam je perkara yang menggembirakan tu berlaku. Ehh, kejap. Gembira ke? Yaaaa mungkin gembira (': dan mungkin juga sedih )': Perasaan dalam diri ini berbelah bahagi tak tahu mana nak pilih samada gembira atau sedih :|

But, the hurt memory still fresh in my mind. The one thing. The bitter thing. The most hated thing that i don't want to remember at all. Those feeling make myself to hate you so much. Hate you more than i hate the things that i hate. Do you understand? Do you got it? Haaa what? No? Not at all? Hermm it's okay dear. I don't care (:

This is the first time i cried a lot towards the people that i love. Oopss, sorry. This is the first time i cried a lot towards the lucky man that i loved so much before. Yeahh i'm still wondering why till now i'm still remember every single about that lucky man. Hurmm, actually i'm still remember the things that the lucky man had done to me. It's not the nice thing. But, it's the BAD thing. OMG why i'm typing  'BAD' with caps lock? Errr, don't know. Ask my finger if you want to know. LOL *lots of love kayy

Every single month, every single week, every single day, every single hour, every single minute, every single second, i'll TRY, TRY and TRY my best to forget you. Haaaa you know what, i'm managed to do that kayy. Oyeahh oyeahh. What? You said i'm a liar? Ohh shekk. You're wrong my dear. I'm not a liar. I tell you the truth. I'm not weak like before. Now, i'm strong enough to face all this thing. You want to know why i'm strong enough than before? Hermm it's easy. It just because i always tell myself to be more stonger and more powerful than before. Hohoooo i'm the SuperStrongerGirl !!! Err, but not the SuperSpontan kayy. auchakkkkkk ! haha JK *just kidding* je sayang (:

The sadness taught me what happiness never could. The tears gave me the energy that i need to stay happy. Ehh? kayy acceptable :b The more the tears streaming down, the more the happier i am. Wowww :o it's cool right? Yepp it's totally coooooooooool ^_^

Sometimes i am so emotional. Sometimes i am so mad. I am so mad at everything. I am so mad at everyone. Hohh, how dangerous it is. Luckily i'm save from that danger. Fuhh fuhhhh. Thank God (': I am still alive (: My future husband, don't worry about me kayy? One day, we will get marry. Get marry ASAP *as fast as possible* No need to worry honey :*

Oh my dear DH a.k.a *as known as* my dear ex-special beloved lovely boyfriend, can you please do me some favour? Please sayang? Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee )': 

Number One

Please do not block me in the sosial networking. Neither in facebook nor twitter. Oh please don't. But, if you want to unfriend me or unfollowing me, you can do it dear. Don't worry, i will not kill you. 

Number Two

Can you please don't hate me as much as i hate you? Can you? Yeahhh i know. Although i am the SuperStrongerGirl, i should not to hate you as much as i want. Ehhh, what the relation with that? Hahaa just accept it lah ea.

Number Three

I need another one month to accept you as my friend. As my truly friend. Hurmm, maybe now i think you are my enemy. Good enemy but not bad enemy (:

Number Four

Don't ask me to do something that i don't want. Don't force me. Example like a day ago. You ask me to see you at somewhere right? And i said i don't want right? Then you said you will wait there till i come right? And i said up to you right? Oh goshh how many right ni ==' Haaa kay. Then you said 'JAHAT'. You said jahat because i did not come there to see you. Oh, damn. Is that my fault? What? My fault? Hurmm kayy !

Number Five

Stop texting and calling my number. Yaaa i know not always you do that. Just please, don't do that. You know what, everytime you call or text me, i feel like i want to throw my phone away. I ask you to do that because i want to save my phone's live from the victim of circumstances. It's a good idea right? Yayy i'm brilliant :b

Number Six

Forgive me for everything. I seek a forgiveness from you. Sincerely from my heart, please forgive me for everything that i had done to you.

Dear DH, i am sorry.

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Self - Destructive Behaviour

Have you ever read something that killed you inside? Like a text or message or someone's status or someone's tweet. Everything was going fine until you accidentally came across something you didn't want to read or found out something you were better off not knowing. It's almost as if it was posted just to purposely hurt you. But you constantly read it over and over again to torture yourself. It sucks how one little thing can ruin your whole day.

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Everything gonna be okay. Insya'Allah (':

I believe good things happen everyday. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. And i believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. And that's life, isn't it?

-Yes, it is.

Lots of love,

Nur Fatin Amira Kasran